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it's strange watching this when i know it was created for me. still, God is good.
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[17 Apr 2007|10:26pm] |
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Thank you, Lord, for all of my many blessings.
i don't deserve a single one of them.
Thank you, Jesus, for dying so that i might live.
it is the ultimate gift. i accept.
I pray, God, that not only will I give to those
who are less fortunate than me- but that i will do
it with a joyful heart.
i want to love others more than myself.
Make me gentle, Lord, towards those who don't believe.
the only difference in us is i've simply accepted a
gift. we are all sinners. you, and only you, can cleanse me.
Be with those who are dealing with pain and heartache.
grant them peace and comfort that only you can give.
Teach me, Dad, to not worry about the future & to realize that
you have a perfect plan in all you do.
you know so much more than i do.
Give me patience, love, compassion, self-control, kindness, true
joy, goodness, faithfulness, and gentleness.
i can't do it on my own.
I want to put you first, others second, and myself last.
i'm selfish and it can be hard, but i can do anything through
your grace.
YOU ARE MERCIFUL, GRACIOUS, LOVING, PERFECT, GENIUS, HARMONIOUS, JUST, PRECIOUS, UNBELIEVABLE, ANCIENT, FUTURISTIC, AND ALL I'LL EVER NEED. I BELONG TO YOU, AND NOTHING, NOT EVEN DEATH, CAN STEAL ME AWAY FROM YOUR ARMS. HOW AMAZING IS THAT?
[CONGRATULATIONS HOLLY & CHAD!]
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[21 Mar 2007|09:45pm] |
a typical conversation:
jamie: jessie, do you still hate my mustache?
jessie: yes, most definitely.
jamie: do you have one?
jessie: yes, i actually do. it's light brown & nasty. wanna come lick it?!
jamie: don't tempt me, frodo.
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[05 Mar 2007|08:23pm] |
think about this:
normally, i hate hearing things like this. mainly because i think i've become numb towards the idea. but really...think about it:
if you knew you had one week to live...how would you do it?
who would you love on & where would you go?
who would you help & how would you help them?
would you stop lying and start living truly?
would you stop spreading rumors and start spreading God's word?
and speaking of God's word...would you take it seriously?
just something to think about.
none of us are promised tomorrow- but today?
today we can make a difference.
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[28 Feb 2007|04:00pm] |
the reasons i can't complain:
1. i got a scholarship offer for broadcast media :]
2. i have reallllyyy good news for mary!
3. tonight is church, american idol, & FOOD.
4. bryan, emily, & i played the BEST pranks ever on debbie.
5. i found a proxy at school...that's how i'm writing to you.
6. I found a black & cream floral comforter.
7. I got my bathroom decor: sky blue, sage green, HAPPY yellow!
emily's reasons she can't complain:
1. LENT!
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[13 Feb 2007|10:39pm] |
we broke up.
i think i'm going to austin peay
& living with mary. :]
i'm really happy.
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[12 Feb 2007|05:50pm] |
1. well, we're on a break right now.
2. christopher does flawless impressions.
3. i feel like a giant jerk, and i feel selfish.
4. i'm relieved :/
5. joseph wouldn't let me order the lobster at hananoki.
6. i ordered the lobster at hananoki. it was really good.
am i making a mistake?
why or why not?
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[08 Feb 2007|06:54pm] |
i've felt so stressed lately.
and, yes, this is a lame reference,
but i'm telling you anyway...
i took a teen vogue quiz on stress yesterday
in class, and the point system was scaled
0-4= little to no stress
5-9= slow down, chill out
10 or more= WOAH! YOU'RE STRESSED!
yeah...i scored a 20.
and the thing is...i am 17 years old.
i have a perfectly wonderful life with the best
friends ever created. now, maybe i am just biased,
but these aren't the friends that you take myspace
pictures with to prove you spend time together.
they aren't the friends that you make time for once
a week & work into your schedule. and they certainly
aren't the friends that you claim to like because
they wear the same clothes & go to the good parties.
these are friends that i, without a doubt, believe
God hand picked for me. i wake up every morning
wishing i was with them. i hate college, by the way.
mtsu or austin peay?
tell me what you think & why.
be positive! this is my friendless future here!
i'm excited about winterfest-
for the fancy clothes & hanaoki FEAST, anyway.
this is my dress, but it's deep royal blue:
i just want to be free!
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[28 Jan 2007|09:59pm] |
as if i haven't worn my heart on my sleeve enough lately-
i've been really down and defeated in a maternal situation.
me and my mom are constantly fighting and i've needed a break.
so, i emailed my dad and i guess talking to him about it opened
my eyes to the way i finished the email...
talking about all of this has really made my problem seem small. i won't always get what i want, but in the end- i'm getting what i need. that's all that really matters.
God knows what he's doing, I don't.
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[25 Jan 2007|10:51pm] |
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this is my 2nd entry in 1 night, but i need to talk.
i feel like i am always, constantly in trouble lately.
for little, tiny things.
it's like i try really hard, and sure- i mess up,
but i guess i'd just like a break.
even just for one day.
another thing,
lately when my mom has gotten mad and given me talks-
it isn't her being crazy, it's just her overreacting
but having justifiable points.
i guess i am just struggling with being a smart alec
teenager with a bad attitude. i want to take the
lessons she's offering me to heart, but i wish
she'd deliver them in a calmer, more loving way
rather than yelling.
can someone give me some pointers on how to deal with this?
i'm tender and sensitive & i can't take it.
God,
open up my eyes to your ways.
i know them, but i've lost sight.
you are the only one who can restore me.
not my parents, not my friends, not even
sunday school- only you. thank you for
loving me even when i'm an idiot.
you rule. i love you. please forgive me
for being so dumb. open my eyes.
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[25 Jan 2007|05:40pm] |
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dear molly,
hallelujiah!
love, jessie.
i got a speeding citation for 59 in a 45 on Ted Crozier blvd.
my dad wasn't mad at all. we are going out for dinner and
a movie tomorrow night. :]
i have a 4-5 page paper. yeah...about that...
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[18 Jan 2007|06:08pm] |
this is basically just a VENT entry.
so, here's the story...
monday night, joe and i went out for dinner,
and i stayed out later than they wanted me to.
(5:00-7:30) keep in mind though, they never told
me i had to be home at a certain time. my mom
did, however, say that she tried calling my cell
phone a few times and i didn't answer. so that one
was my bad. SO, my punishment for that is that
i can't have joe (or anyone else unless it's justified)
in my car for a week (until monday).
well, today i went to get a pedicure at the mall.
then, i took joseph some sodas because he hates diet drinks
and that's all they ever have at his house. then, i wanted
to get a manicure also, but time didn't permit. SO, i lost
track of time and was 15 minutes late to work. (the same office
at which i do nothing but talk on the phone, eat, and post
livejournal entries).
my mom, frantic, called emily & joe to see if they knew where
i was & had my dad rush home from work worried. she, then,
called me and told me that i am in huge trouble because i was
at joe's when i wasn't supposed to be & i was late for work
because of it.
THEY NNNEVVVVEERRRR SAID I COULDN'T GO TO HIS HOUSE,
THEY SAID I COULDN'T DRIVE HIM AROUND.
SHE SAYS I KNEW STOPPING BY THERE WAS DISOBEDIENT,
BUT I HONESTLY DIDN'T.
then, she kept telling me to tell her the truth.
and i just said, "i'm sorry you don't believe me,
but i AM NOT lying and i'm not going to say that i am."
NOW, am i wrong?
am i being disobedient?
i'm i being ridiculous?
or are they?
what're your thoughts?
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[16 Jan 2007|06:02pm] |
i'd love to be a woman again!
january 21st, hurry please!
i am so pumped about american idol.
[insert ENGLISH accent]
anyone who wants to- feel free to come to the
activities building in the church tonight
around 6:30-8:30ish. we're having a party!
not really, but, yeah- you should come.
the other day, emily said this:
"there is nothing more genuine than looking
into the eyes of the person you love and
knowing that it is so real."
yeah, she said it.
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[07 Jan 2007|04:54pm] |
there's been a lot of really stressful stuff going on lately.
some of you are kind enough to be praying for me about it, and i really,
really appreciate that. i don't want to be cliche, but i've heard
phenominal things about the power of prayer, and i've experienced them, too.
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now, other problems are coming my way. completely different ones,
but nevertheless- they are here. i don't want to deal with this...not again.
in all honesty, the only way i am able to sleep at night and
wake up the next day is because of God's forgiving love & all of your
prayer & support. so, yeah, thank you. i love you guys.
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something i've learned-just in case anyone else needs to hear it...
no matter what you go through, what happens to you, or where you end up-
God is always constant. you may make mistakes and screw things up for yourself,
but God's love is everlasting. if we stay in his perfect will- things will
go swimmingly. if not- (we don't deserve this...) but he STILL listens and loves.
i'm such a fool. such a fool. this is the greatest love i'll ever know.
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[02 Jan 2007|05:22pm] |
i am in a real need of prayer, please.
i'd rather not talk about it-
but God will know what you're talking about.
so, yeah.
i'd appreciate it.
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[31 Dec 2006|12:23pm] |
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lately, all i am is a lazy bum & all i do is watch the office.
over and over and over. and i wouldn't have it any other way.
i find myself constantly quoting it. even if there is no one else around.
weird, :/ but it's so hysterical. plus, JIM HALPERT, PLEASE COME TO LIFE!
the other day, lauren & i watched the episode when jim fixes pam grilled
cheese on the roof about three times. then, my mom fixed us grilled cheese. could it get any better. seriously?
i'm excited about emily's tonight;
i hope everyone can make it!
i have three boys in my life- jesus,joseph,jeff.
they all have my heart!it's so good! i love it!
yeahhhhhhhhhhh.
safe flight, mary and dairsy.
now, i'll go back to my hole and repeat disc two.
pam & jim forever!
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[26 Dec 2006|11:47am] |
CHRISTMAS RULES! YEAH!
i still have a few gifts to give out.
(alex, bryan, y krista)
i really didn't get much this year.
but i really didn't ask for much either.
i think it was the perfect amount.
enough to feel the joy of receiving! hahh
but not so much that i feel guilty.
yeahhhhh.
joseph gave me the office season 2!
i was so happy.
then, i kissed him!
(for the first time!)
jk. gotcha!
but i'm not kidding about the dvd.
i really got it.
I LOVE TO LOVE AND BE LOVED.
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[23 Dec 2006|12:49am] |
the following are the first sentences
of each month of the past year's entries.
janu:
back and blacker than ever.
i used to not know what to think.
now, i know what to think.
the problem is; figuring out how to act.
febu.
i hope you enjoyed your juice,
and your letter,
and your compact disc,
and my heart.
marc.
you'll be happy to know that 134 years ago today:
Yellowstone National Park was established and
named America's first national park.
apri.
tonight sucked.
april fools. it was the best night ever.
i reunited and it was my birthday.
may.
katharine macfee can sing; end of it.
they all have their talented areas, though.
i love simon & elliot.
june.
i just got my hair dyed; it's jet black.
i hate it. i will forever walk around with a bandana on.
until i get it fixed tomorrow afternoon, that is.
july.
...and then God gave us breeze.
i'm joking, but seriously, he did.
augu.
my brother is the cutest person ever. really.
his feet stink. he's been chasing me around the house
yelling "smell my smellys". +, he knows every single
word to riding dirty. i hope my 4 kids look like him!
septe.
STEVE ERWIN DIED,
PLUTO IS NO LONGER A PLANET,
A 5th OCEAN WAS DECLARED,
+ NICKEL CREEK IS BREAKING UP.
WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TOO!?
octo.
in the past, i've lived for the future.
always strung out on homework, deadlines,
college, decisions, tests, ect.
but things change & i've changed my mind.
now, i will live for the moment.
nove.
good feeling,
won't you stay with me, just a little longer...
this feeling is definitely good :]
dece.
i'm putting some life back into my hair tomorrow.
i don't really know what i'm going for; i just know
that i'm definitely not digging this bozo orange shade i'm working with now.
that's my life in a nutshell.
or in a year.
whatev.
LOVE YOU GUYS!
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[17 Dec 2006|09:24pm] |
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let's talk.
you and me.
just the two of us.
without anyone there.
do you get what i'm trying to say?
maybe you don't...
that's just the thing.
:/
i'm not mad; just sad.
and lonely.
i love you & all of that crap.
PLEASE COME BACK.
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